God is the Reason of My Happiness

by Ivan P.
(Bird Island, Minnesota, USA)

I used to be really unhappy, and I lived in a lot of fear. I was an adult who couldn't go into a dark room. I literally would reach in the room to turn on the light before I would walk into the room because I was afraid of who or what might be in there. I felt embarrassed and unhappy about this, or… to be honest, I don't think that I had ever felt truly happy, either.

And in all truth, I didn't really have a reason to be unhappy. I had good friends and a supporting family, I was attending a good college, and I was healthy. I grew up going to church, but I don't think that I really understood who God was, or what it meant to have a relationship with God. Thus, I had a lot of empty holes in my life that I could not fill.

One day, at the age of 22, after having gone to church my entire life, I actually felt connected with God for the first time. Not sure how this happened, but all of a sudden the reasons of my being scared all the time became obvious. I started remembering events and places from my childhood where hurts had never healed; and as if by miracle, I felt like I was protected by God and that nothing could stand in my way to living a happier life.

Suddenly, I realized that the more I remembered the more these old hurts started vanishing and I felt as if a weight had been lifted from my back. I wasn't afraid anymore, and more importantly, I began to get a glimpse of what genuine happiness truly is. Now I really understand the fact that I have direct access to the Comforter, and I can go and talk to Him anytime I feel upset.

My life has never been the same since that moment!

I find it really difficult to explain this to people mostly because it's never easy to describe what a true connection to God really feels like. It is truly a personal experience that cannot be put into plain words.

All I can say from my own personal experience is that you never have to be unhappy again!

Even when the worst possible scenario slaps you in the face, you have One who loves you unconditionally and is right there with you at all times.

I have had countless situations that I could not deal with on my own, but with just one prayer I felt peace and felt supported to deal with my problem.

I've seen my emotional health do a complete 180 degree turn almost instantaneously because of His love, and hope you take my word for it and just let it happen for you.